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    2 months ago

    I stopped expecting that people would ever be kind to me. Maybe, I don’t deserve kindness. Maybe I deserve to wallow in self-pity, hoping in vain. Maybe I don’t deserve loving words because I cannot maintain a pleasant facade for too long.

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        2 months ago

        Thank you for your kind words. I have a hard time believing them, though. People don’t seem to like me all that much irl.

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              2 months ago

              What kind of books are you into? I just read fantasy book called Rage of Dragons which was really fun

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                2 months ago

                Most kinds. Mostly, I love fantasy books. Currently, I am reading Siddhartha by Herman Hesse. I am holding out on reading Rage of Dragons, until the series is complete. I am intrigued by it’s Africa-inspired world and myth.

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                  2 months ago

                  Siddhartha’s so good! I love those kinds of books about self awareness and growth. You’re definitely wiser than me though, I shouldn’t have made the mistake of starting a series that isn’t don’t yet, but I guess ASOIAF and the Kingkiller Chronicle wasn’t lesson enough for me

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                    Yeah. I am really liking Siddhartha so far. I learnt not to touch the series that is complete, from TV shows. Either, they get cancelled or the quality dips pretty drastically. So, I learnt to wait till the end.

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        2 months ago

        I have BPD. I have a hard time validating my own actions. Hence, self-love is hard for me.