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Talk about what’s happening queerly in your life - like coming out, getting HRT, questioning, and all that good stuff.

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  • Jenniferrr [she/her, comrade/them]@hexbear.net
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    11 months ago

    Ok I matched with a girl on a dating app. We haven’t met yet but I think we’re gonna this Friday, she’s looking for queer community so I’m inviting my friend too because I feel like she’d quickly join our friend group. But also I’m feeling very gay feelings for her based on just our conversation lol crush

  • GaveUp [she/her]@hexbear.net
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    11 months ago

    Did estrogen actually sharpen anybody else’s jawline? Face looks a bit more feminine but in an androgynous but still extremely male masculine model type of way with prominent cheekbones, sharp jawline but soft features elsewhere :/ Think it’s cause the fat transfer?

  • ashinadash [she/her]@hexbear.net
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    11 months ago

    I can tell I’m not reading the required amount of sapphic things when

    • my moodswings get out of control

    • I start reading thru really bad yuri manga if someone mentions it

    • I antagonise queer libs by saying things like “The US is an illegitimate failed state built on the backs of slaves, genocidal bloodshed and stolen land” appropos of nothing

    I must feed my desire for fictional gayness or risk becoming more dysfunctional.

  • Jenniferrr [she/her, comrade/them]@hexbear.net
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    11 months ago

    Guymoding for a week has made me feel so fucking weird and confused. Like I’m way less confident in my transness than I was before I left to see family. Honestly just feeling disgusted with myself

      • Jenniferrr [she/her, comrade/them]@hexbear.net
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        11 months ago

        Thank you. Fwiw I’m Watchung my brother essentially have a bunch of pre-marriage stuff happen and I’m like really repulsed by the idea of being someone’s husband or boyfriend which I guess is validating haha

  • good_girl [she/her, they/them]@hexbear.net
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    11 months ago

    Posting again to get out a small dilemma I’ve been having internally.

    There’s a name that I want to make my chosen name, but it wouldn’t fit into my culture traditionally. I’ve been ruminating on it for a bit, but the other thing is that I don’t think I really care much about my ethnic culture. I’m also not even sure I want to fully come out to my parents/family if I can avoid it. But choosing a name that’s a bit more anglo when I’m hispanic feels kinda weird in a way? Idk.

    Any other trans bipoc go through something similar? I’d love to hear about y’all’s thoughts on this.

    edit: huh after posting this I realized my girlfriend’s sisters both have more anglo names despite also being hispanic. maybe I’m worrying about this too much

  • TerminalEncounter [she/her]@hexbear.net
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    11 months ago

    I still have a very dumb but huge crush on the libbest possible chick conceivable. It’s really annoying, I haven’t felt like this since like high school. I don’t know what the fuck sparked it, I haven’t even seen her face (she hides it/censors it in pics which I understand as a fellow trans girl). Wish I could say more about it other than being frustrated it’s happening lmao

  • good_girl [she/her, they/them]@hexbear.net
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    11 months ago

    Today (Dec 30th) officially marks the end of my fourth week on HRT. Haven’t noticed too many changes physically, mentally, or emotionally. My skin feels softer i think but that may be placebo and i swear the redness on my legs and thighs is starting to clear up in splotches but that could be me noticing things that have always been there…

    Anyway this entire month I’ve been really craving some trans and queer focused content (and shitposts) that isn’t just video essays (i do love video essays i just feel like something more easily digested) but I’m not sure where to look.

    I rewatched The Bisexual but that’s pretty much it. Feeling like I might just reread Nevada for the hell of it.

        • ashinadash [she/her]@hexbear.net
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          Books directly descended from Nevada: Detransition, Baby by Torrey Peters. It has differing core themes (queer parenthood) but it basically continues the spirit of Nevada, which is “surly damaged trans woman bitches for 300 pages about how everything sucks in New York”. It’s enjoyable I think, I like Reese as a protagonist and Ames is equally sympathetic and infuriating to watch pretend to be a dude.

          Books stylistically very similar to Nevada:

          Little Fish by Casey Plett, which is similar but set in Alberta (or something Idk kkkanada ) and follows Wendy through her weird relationship with having been raised Mennonite.

          Otros Valles by Jamie Berrout. The yin to Nevada’s yang, featuring direct intertext and one of the only trams women of colour I’ve seen author a novel about being trans and not white. Very rad.

          Books tangentially related to Nevada:

          Little Blue Encyclopedia by Hazel Jane Plante: Narrator recounts the life of her deceased and beloved friend Vivian, through an encyclopedia of things from her favourite in-universe TV show, and it’s the best pining-for-a-straight-girl I have ever read.

          Tell Me I’m Worthless by Alison Rumfitt: Here’s a book where Nevada’s blog-lecture style clashes horribly against a horror tale with a really simple theme about the British being fash. I thought it was awful but you might like it?

          Manhunt by Gretchen Felker-Martin: Check the content warnings on Storygraph, this book is an absolute hot mess, paced weirdly and reads like an unhinged trauma dump. But, its focus on assimilation and queer community building makes it worth engaging with for strong-stomached readers.

          That’s all the books with sorta-ties to Nevada I can think of, I have a lot more novels with trans wlw as leads hanging out too though. (Read The Last Girl Scout by Natalie Ironside!!!)

  • GinAndJuche@hexbear.net
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    11 months ago

    Conflicted. My sister was trying to be supportive and asking if I had a boyfriend, but as soon as she got drunk she made some homophobic remarks. At least she’s trying.

  • goaway420 [none/use name]@hexbear.net
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    11 months ago

    I just don’t want to lie to myself anymore but I have no idea what the truth is. It’s so frightening to think about talking to anyone but my online friends about it even though I’m surrounded by positive people. I think I need to look into therapy and figure things out. (Apologies to Sonic if I turn out to be cishet. joever )