damnatum_seditiosus [any]

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Cake day: August 3rd, 2020
  • damnatum_seditiosus [any]@hexbear.nettoneurodiverse@hexbear.net•Were any of you the first to get diagnosed in your family?English
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    8 days ago

    CW : mention of suicidal thoughts

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    I’m first with any of the diagnostics I had along the way. Though hypomanic bipolarity fits quite well with my father where he had spurs of out of nowhere ideas and projects to then shortly abandon them later. His incomprehension of my self-harm and suicide idealisation while I was a teen, saying that it was for weak people, can also show how he coped with his own thoughts, but I’ll never know.

    I’m pretty sure my big brother also has something, or just a classical cis-man with anger issues. But the rest of the siblings are churning along quite fine I believe.

  • damnatum_seditiosus [any]@hexbear.nettoneurodiverse@hexbear.net•Has this happened to anyone else? Am I just in denial? This makes no sense to meEnglish
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    8 months ago

    CW : Story of suicidal thoughts and kind of self harm too.

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    I too got diagnosed in the last few years with Bipolar with hypomania after I also did a test for ADD which was positive. I’ve struggled with suicidal thoughts since my teenage years but I knew that if I just waited it out, it would pass and I’d gain that sweet new will to live and a boost to my self esteem with it.

    But yeah I had typical depressed stuff, isolating, dropping everything and projects I had started and missing while days too. I’ve started with Aripriprazole too but I was getting some morbid thoughts racing in my head too and that kind of stopped using antipsychotics.

    But as other have noted, get a second opinion if you can, you know yourself better than anyone after all.