• oNevia@lemmy.blahaj.zoneM
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    11 months ago

    Well, a combination of events. My son being born sent me into another identity crisis about being a “father”

    This led to a relapse into addiction.

    Years of therapy, marriage falling apart, suicidality and self hatred while trying to be the best parent I could be. Then one day I realized I was trying to be an ideal mother. Not father. I saw myself as a mother.

    All of that boiled into finally getting the courage to Google “how to know I am trans” and I came across the Gender Dysphoria Bible which shattered my egg officially :)

    Happy to say that everything in my life that was falling apart is now stronger and healthier. I’m able to love myself, my wife and I are closer than ever, I’m present with my son and am a good parent, been sober for almost 1.5 years. Been a crazy ride!

    And in a couple days, I’ll be taking my first dose of E and officially starting my HRT journey ❤️