I’m not the kind of ‘trendy’ bipolar, although my cunt of an aunt believes I have ‘convinced’ myself of that, despite being to the nuthouse twice (50 days total) and several psycho-shinks having diagnosed me with several other mental disorders; the very first nuttyness I got diagnosed with was of course, ADD/ADHD. I was given Ritalin. I still take Ritalin though, 2 kinds of it (36mg extended release and 20mg regular type),
So given that I have had a natural birth, the flow of oxygen could have been cut off to my brain. So could I also be ‘on the spectrum’ as they say?
I am not a healthy person. I am very obsessive with shit nobody cares about. But that’s the funhouse version of ‘autism’ that media shows. Plus it could be from Ritalin use.
How do I know that I am ‘on the spectrum’ without relying much on any external sources? Is it like bipolarity where they give you pills? What does exactly happen when you are known to be an autistic person?
Is it even necessary if I get diagnosed? I already know my brain is not right. So what’s the use in getting the double.
But honestly I have some obsessions that could signal a bit of on-the-spectrum-y-ness? Like why do I hate Rust and all Rust programmers?
I don’t do well socially either. Again I realize these are ‘funhouse’ and ‘stereotypical’ things people say about people on ‘the spctrum’. But I get annoyed even if people use the apostrophe ’ incorrectly!
I could just be an obsessive asshole. I am also a druggie but that’s a whole other story.
My family is chockful of bipolar people btw, but not many autistic people. My second cousin, son of my first cousin once removed, is autistic. As I understand chief reason for this is your mom and dad being old. Like my first cousin once removed was 40 when she had her son, her husband was in his 40s too.
On the other hand, my mom was 21 when she had me, and my dad 26. It’s a known fact that the younger humans are, the healthier you are. I am not trying to troll anybody, this is just a fact. Two things ruins chances of a healthy off-spring, one is consanguineous relations, the other is age. I live in one of those retarded countries where it’s still not proven to people that fucking your cousin is bad actually. My parents were from different cities, different races even. My dad was brown-skinned and green-eyed, my mom is white-skinned and brown-haired. Both are ethnically Persian though. Although my dad’s grandmother was a gypsy, these gypsies are not the ones you find in Romania, these are the gypsies who stayed behind closer to the place of origin. We call them ‘jatts’; and that’s how anthropologists know gypsies come from India (if people close to India call them ‘jatt’, and there’s a group of people in India called ‘jatt’ then, put two and two together I guess! You are smart, your parents weren’t brother and sister, or were they?)
Thanks for your help.
You’re describing unpopular obsessions and irritability (which is a form of depression). You’ve been diagnosed with ADHD. ADHD does co-occur with depression and emotional regulation problems and with autism.
Your obsessions could be the ‘special interests’ of autism but that sort of thing can also occur in ADHD which is known for deep dives into narrow hobbies and hyper-focus. I’d say that in ADHD the interests tend to switch off and be replaced with a new one more frequently than in autism.
For autism you need 1) a speech/language problem (which could be very subtle) and 2) restricted and repetitive patterns of behavior or interests (eg the special interests). You maybe have the second part, so the question I’d be asking myself is whether you have the speech language problem part. Look up pragmatic language problems to get an idea. You can use language fluently but miss the subtle parts of it like what facial expressions mean and when that happens you can’t understand sarcasm or other non-literal forms of language where you say one thing but mean the other. “How are you?” “I’m fine” (when the person saying this means they are not fine but don’t want to talk about it)
Hope this helps.
To add to your statement, irritability is also a very common expression of bipolar.
I have a lot of problems greeting people, my great aunt used to mimic my way of saying hi. I would say it in a very, very low tone (English is not my first language, I mean the equivalent). And as for saying goodbye, I despise it. People are telling me ‘Yeah I see you around, remain in touch’ etc etc, shit people say at the end of a ‘social unit’ and all I can say is ‘goodbye’.
That was when I went outside though. I have not went outside for months – well this morning I went out to buy cigarettes and that was my first outage in several months.
I have other problems, not gonna lie. I wanna know if they give you pills for autism. Because I want more pills.
Yeah, what you describe might indeed fit the criteria for an autism diagnosis though I can’t say for sure. I’m not aware of any pills for the condition, but you’d want to talk to a psychiatrist to know for sure. Mostly, I would send you to a speech and language therapist if one is available and affordable.