Idk what to do. I might be trans, might just be someone who wants to look cute and I can’t tell the difference anymore. Also permanently transitioning will come at great personal cost and might be a unique safety issue. Also I never had any dysphoric thoughts before 26-27y of age. I’m 31 now I’ve lived most of my life as a straight man maybe just keep going lmao. But I do have gender envy for days. Point being why now. Also it’ll break my mother’s heart if she so much as sees me in a skirt. Dad’s too lol. Say what you will about ‘that’s on them, not your problem, transphobes bad’ I can’t help but love and care about them, they’ve really tried as parents. they’re just heavily indoctrinated old ppl with calcified brains.
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I’ve started HRT about 3 months ago and I still haven’t come out to some of my family (well, I kinda have… a couple times, but not really?). One of the few reasons I haven’t is because if I decide to stop, I don’t want to have to un-come-out. Anyways, hard to imagine many cis people being so worried about finding out they aren’t trans.