I used to play games, but now I only think about the time I’m wasting. I used to like food, but now I only think about how many calories are in it. I’d rather watch a TV show I’ve seen a million times than watch anything new. I read about a book a month but the minutes before I pick up the page feel like procrastinating a shower when the hot water is busted. I did a lot of exercise this week but now I’m left wondering if it was really worth the oxygen.
It… didn’t used to be like this. I’d be happy just going to school, playing games until way too late, talking to my online friends and doing the same thing the next day. Maybe it’s because back then I had graduation in mind as a long term objective. But now, the only certainty left for me is the inevitable fate of every living creature. I’m lonely. At school you’re forced to meet the same 30-100 people every day, but I’ve never been worth going out of anyone’s way. I have almost no social contacts that charge my battery rather than deplete it.
I feel like I should keep trying new things. But honestly, all that’s good in my life was given to me by chance (or a deity if you believe in one). Every time I have actively tried to better things it either changed nothing or made things worse. I’m so tired.
Has anyone “been there” and turned the ship around?
I buy the Amazon branded version, it just says GABA and the other says L-Theanine.
L-Theanine is derived from green tea, and GABA is synthesized in a lab using fungi or bacteria metabolism.
One is herbal, the other isn’t. Both have peer reviewed medical journal publications regarding effectiveness, but neither are for what you think they affect (hint: neither affect depression, like at all).
So your placebo worked.
The publications you linked showed a clear correlation with reducing stress and improving sleep. That matches exactly with what I’ve described - I stress less and enjoy life more. Why are you intent on proving that this is a placebo? And what is your explanation as to why the two dozen medications I’ve tried over the past 20 odd years haven’t had the same impact, if a placebo is the cause? You seem to have a bias or agenda and it’s unclear why.
I’m just coping with my depression and expensive meds I can’t afford and mad no one told me about this shit.
Your exasperation is valid. Keep in mind that doctors can’t really recommend medications that aren’t yet FDA approved, such as ones with only preliminary evidence for their efficacy, even if there is established research that they don’t have negative side affects