The one thing about my neurotype that bothers me sometimes is my night owlness.
If I have no mandated early morning thing I will not go to sleep. Despite my best intentions to do that. Just today I had a free day, but had a morning appointment and by noon I was amazed at *all the day I have left *because I got up sooner.
I love nights. I love the darkness and the solitude, I love how silent it is and how safe and like myself I feel when everyone else is sleeping. And I’ve always been like this. As a kid I read books in bed until morning, as I grew up I watched whatever was on on tv until the wee hours. There were the gaming years as well and now I browse the internet.
There is no real point to this rant. I suppose it would just be nice to have more time in my freedays, but I also don’t want to give up my nights of solitude or patholozise what I have always been like.
I usually fall asleep pretty early (9ish) but I have periods where my sleep cycle is fucked and I wake up at 3. Still though, like you said the solitude is so nice. The cat appreciates another night creature to keep her company too
The world is just softer at night.