Honestly. Ive been on E for almost two years now, would pass if i tried but i just cant get myself to do it. Im happy with the changes and i wouldnt want to go back. Its my life, my body, and i have every right to seek a happy and fulfilling life as myself.

Sometimes i get these doubts too. Ive figured out that most of them come from outside, from people around me. I feel like i would be a disappointment to my parents if i did come out. Im not sure how my friends would react either. And suddenly i would have this huge need to perform my gender or something, to not appear fake and for the people to take me seriously. I dont wanna socially transition. Im just so afraid.

Like it would fix me if i could move somewhere where no one knew me from before. Its just that simple, but in practice, holy fucking shit. Its just, the people. The people make this so fucking hard. Especially the ones who know me and who i interact with weekly. Fuck.