Thank you for sharing this difficult and intimate stuff with the community. I can’t add to the replies as I’m a few steps (and years - I’m in UK) away from getting e. But I constantly vibrate between: I’m feminine and expressing that feels such a relief and … well feeling and thinking all sorts of bad stuff about myself, like I’m making it up, like I’m doing it for attention, or unnecessarily making things difficult for family etc.

Take care of yourself, you’re a real person and you matter, regardless of your gender. I’m sorry things are so hard for you right now. xx