I need some help
Of course Amerikkka killed another innocent person point blank today, on video with no ambiguity. Of course the chuds are celebrating and the libs are doing nothing and I’m sitting here at work on 10 total hours of sleep over the last two days watching everyone around me not care at all. Or maybe they all just hide it better?
IDK man it feels like my whole life is just leading up to me doing something horrible to some people who deserve it and then ending myself. And no one cares. And I know what will happen as the chuds will call me a fat ass and libs will say “Epstein” and there will just be new ghouls to replace the old ones.
How do I numb myself to stop caring so damn much? I swear I can’t do this anymore


A few years ago I was working every day of the week, 70h/wk, for 6 weeks. Even with a committed organizing group around me, and even earning much more than ever before, it put me in a really dark place mentally. Sleep well and eat well and hug someone and expose yourself to lots of plants.
Having a horizon of life achievement to look towards does a lot, as does being in a group of well-aligned people. I believe that this was the biggest difference between myself and the majority of my worn-down, empty-feeling coworkers. I have a straight shot to house acquisition which will lower base living costs to less than $2k/yr per person when shared, and to expanding this into a constellation of collective houses with dozens of the socialists in my life, and to starting businesses that I could turn into workers’ coops, and if everything falls apart I would still have a rural commune to bug out to. Not saying this to brag so much as “I want to connect every Hexbear to this who wants it”.
It feels like I have found a resonance between the path of my own life and my socialist politics, I call this finding the plot, and I want this for every political accomplice. If you ever want someone to talk to about personal circumstances and analyzing what can be done with them, or just for someone to cheer you on, I’d love to chat.
Thank you comrade. I’m feeling a lot better 🫂