My mood has been hypercycling for a while. But today really sucked, my favorite person that I live with got pissed at me for a reason I still don’t know. Has also been very stand offish with random moments of closeness like we usually have. The whole while stopping things we were doing together to do them with their bf instead. I love them a lot but today I just want to pick up and leave, I only live here for them. I know I’m being jealous but I can’t seem to help it. I feel nauseous with emotion and want to hit the destruct button and start over some where else. Don’t know what to do, and i guess im just venting I suppose
Ask them why they’re pissed off at you
I agree with the other comment. You should find out why they are upset and if there’s anything to address. Try to rack your brain for anything done out of the ordinary, or if you forgot something. Try to keep it reasonable. Say it out loud if you have to. Sometimes the spiraling I’ve done gets neutralized if I verbalize the thought. Helps me hear if something is ridiculous.
I’m sorry you’re having a rough time. Issues around where we live can be so stressful, because home is supposed to be safe and predictable. What does your therapist think about your relationship with this friend? Have you discussed it much? Do you have a therapist? Do you and your friend see your relationship together in the same way?
Good luck my friend! I hope you feel good again soon!
Thank u for all the kind words, I’m feeling better today. I talked to them and things worked out. Was definitely manic at the time of writing this. I will have to post here when I’m not feeling bad also, this is a good community
Sounds like you were flooded with emotions when you wrote this, and I’m curious if things got any better since you posted? I sincerely hope so. It’s never a good idea to make big decisions during emotional moments, so please don’t uproot yourself until you are sure that’s what you actually want to do.
I’m going to make a guess, it sounds like your friend’s behavior is really hurting you and making you feel rejected. Someone else already suggested talking to them, that sounds like it could clear up any misunderstandings.
Whatever you decide to do, I want to wish you best of luck!
