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1 year ago
BirdBrained [she/her]
Just a silly feeble minded little gay
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Cake day: July 24th, 2023
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But they’ve overcome their shyness
Now they’re calling me Your Highness
And a world screams, “Kiss me, Son of God”
#Tradle #562 X/6
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I suck at the island nations ones. One of these days I’ve just got to start taking those geography quizzes to train for the Pacific and the Caribbean
I don’t even have the confidence to correct people
Went to target the other day and shit is getting bad out there. They had two security guards standing by the entrance plus a cop car parked right by the front doors to be as visible as possible. So, so many things were behind glass cases now, the fucking toothpaste was behind glass. It would probably cost less money to just let people shoplift than it does to buy and maintain all of this security, but I guess the cruelty is the point
13 months HRT and I still look basically the same. Still fucking getting misgendered after introducing myself with an undeniably feminine name + painted nails + a full fem outfit why do I even bother
Suicide mention, alcoholism
My major in college makes me want to fucking die. I’m an environmental sciences major and every fucking day I’m reminded just how little time we have left. I’ve got to do a reading about how climate change is effecting the region in which I live and it’s giving me existential dread and I’ve got to do an assignment based off of this reading and it’s due in less than 2 hours and I just want to fucking cry reading this. My state is going to be one of the hardest hit in the country and I won’t be able to live here for the rest of my life. My home city, basically the only place I’ve lived for any significant time, where I’ve been for well over 20 years, is going to eventually be uninhabitable. Despite living here all my life I already am having a really hard time dealing with the heat and it’s only going to get fucking worse.
The one and only thing I can do to feel better is get drunk but I can’t even do that right now because I told people I’d take a 30 day break. I got in the habit of doing homework while drunk and now that I can’t I’m struggling with assignments. Why does it even fucking matter to people if I do that, I’m going to die of dehydration or heatstroke or get hate-crimed for being trans years before my liver gives out. I don’t care if it kills me, I just wish people around me would like me die in a way that makes me happy
It’s only been 5 fucking days and I don’t think I can go the full 30. I have no idea what to fucking do. I need to change majors but even then I won’t be able to stop thinking about climate change because I can fucking feel and see it every single day. I’m scheduled to start therapy next week but I don’t think it will help. No amount of mindfulness or whatever bullshit they’re going to tell me is going to stop the planet from dying.
4·1 year agoSorry I’m new to this and don’t know all the terminology, what’s a bud?
I had 3-ish puffs the first night, and the second night I was really drunk so I wasn’t making the best decisions so I kept taking a puff every 10-15mins for like 3 hours
What I had was indica with a THC in the 90s% and 0% CBD. I might go out and and get a high CBD sativa to see if I like that better
What I tried had a THC amount in the 90%-ish or so but I definitely wouldn’t say it felt like I got hit by a brick. Besides loosing my emotions I really didn’t feel much else, and even then that was more of an absence rather than a whole new feeling itself
The second time I smoked I got crossfaded and tbh I wasn’t a massive fan of that either. To be fair, I had wayyyy more than just a small amount of alcohol that night, I stopped being able to count after the 8th shot of vodka, so maybe with a small amount it would be okay?
What I tried was a weed vape with like a THC amount in the 90-ish% with 0% CBD, so if I didn’t like that than it’s probably not for me from the sounds of it
People are scary and terrifying and I wish they’d just be open about how they feel and what they want
Am I missing something with weed?? I think it fucking sucks. I smoked it for the first time last week and then I tried it again the next day and both times it was awful. It felt like I had no emotions or something, like I became an automaton, I just felt so empty. Alcohol just seems so much fucking better in every single way (although I’m taking a break from drinking so I can’t do that right now
)Is there anything to the different strains or is it all basically the same? I’m hesitant to try it again but I really wanted it to work out, idk smoking weed all the time probably isn’t good for you but it’s better than getting drunk 4-6 nights a week so I was hoping to do that instead. I just want to not be so anxious all the fucking time and so far nothing but alcohol really helps, plus drinking makes my positive emotions feel so much more powerful which I love. Being high almost made me feel like I did pre-HRT emotionally, just empty and cloudy and confused
life doesn’t really feel like a video game anymore
Had one of those weeks where decades happen
I want a 55 year old union railroad worker from Chicago to narrate all of my thoughts
17·1 year agoIt was not but thank you
I’ve had the weirdest 24 hours of my life
Pog and soyface are the same thing, it’s just if you like the person it’s pog and if you don’t like them then it’s soy
