You go girl! How’s the HRT going?

And welcome on Lemmy :D

Crying in bed because I wasn’t a girl should have been a definite tell :) But it always went better at some point before it became impossible to hold back so I never sought help. My teens were loops of doubts, then certainty but too scared to talk.

In my later adolescence I realised I (or started to) liked guys, and I was able to to feel better about being one. And I had a few adventures with guys as a guy which felt great and I thus believed that my trans phase had passed, for a few years.

During that time I often described myself as “I don’t really care/I could be either, but people say I’m a guy so ok” but I still had a little (repressed?) desire to be seen as a girl. And I was weirdly emotional about being treated as a guy by laws that differentiate between men and women (military service/retirement age)

Then I had to work as a kitchen assistant, mostly with women, and being treated as a non-woman by them felt really bad. (Previously I was in an environment that didn’t really feel gendered) And the outfit made me look vaguely feminine and I liked it and awoke my desires to be seen as a girl and experiment with clothing and nail polish.

As I experimented, it completely shattered my egg, I slowly came out to friends, and 14 days ago, started HRT!

I’m unsure. Maybe it got to the hips (not the ass, higher) maybe the belly, idk. I didn’t take much weight in the end. My blessing/curse of never gaining weight might still be in effect :)

My nipples are more sensitive but not budding yet. 14th E dose today

But it feels completely different

Oh I didn’t mean your breast buds; even if my feeling of softer skin is placebo, well, the effect is still that I feel like I have softer skin.

But like you said, having effects in the first week is possible so it’s (my skin) probably not placebo in the first place

The beauty with placebo is that it works even tho you know it’s placebo :p

I didn’t think about that! Thanks for the tip

Oh great to hear it :D

I don’t know what kind of feeling I was expecting but I believed that I would be able to feel the change in hormones :p

Also: My endocrinologist (spelling???) told me that quite quickly new fat would be deposited in girlies spots. I already ate quite a lot this weekend. Let’s put this claim to the test^^

I tested with the reflection of things on my cook-top while making pancakes (TMI) and the reflections were definetly shorter the more I looked from above. I believe it is because the things in the reflection are “further away” hence smaller. The reflection of my duck is definetly too small tho, I’ll be more carefull next time :D

Thanks for the explanation it really helped wraping my head around the thing.