PowerLurker [they/them]

gee golly gosh I do sure feel exhausted and lonely a lot of the time despite having friends and community I love. could it have something to do with the fact that 1/3 of my time is spent doing boring bullshit around people I tolerate at best (or just don’t really know at all) so I can pay for housing and food?

(Actually come to think about it, this is the first job I’ve had in a while where I don’t really have even one work friend. While those friendships are often not with people you’d necessarily choose to hang with in your free time, and are often not built to last any longer than the job, I do miss them when I don’t have them…)

oh no not my attachment issues & social anxiety getting flared up by taking a chance on a new friendship. i mean that literally btw, I have neither of those things

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lol u missed 2025’s biggest struggle session and honestly i’m happy for you.

cult hit television progrum mister robot is cool and woke, not cringe and lib. it will never be cringe and lib.

chapo is the name of a druag lord. it will never be anything but the name of a druglord.

cheetos live in crinkly bags, that they would live anywhere else ( ) is purely fanciful. thbey will never leave their crinkly little bags…

bliss

scribbling furiously in my notebook combing my brain til its bloody on a double dose of vyvanse in despearate quest to resolve the dirtbag/wokescold dialectic…

being a high functioning alcoholic sucks but it could be worse, i have a friend who is (or at least was for a time) addicted to wage labor

reporte d for meetaposting

before the atrocious shit hits the fan, small projects like that are how movements/infrastructure gets built that can weather the storm or be a countervailing force to violent reaction. i’m sure our comrades internationally have done similar movement building work. the Panthers certainly weren’t playing with toys when they were deploying, say, the Free Breakfast Program (the State certainly didn’t see them that way).

i think you’re fine, comrade. we’re all trying to build this beautiful cathedral that we almost certainly won’t live to see (socialism) but which will enrich our planet’s future in the way our circumstances and skillsets allow for. no good comes from beating yourself up about a cosmic accident (where and when you were born), sounds like you’re trying your best with the lane fate has chosen for you.

New J-horror film Best Wishes to All was awesome, my exact favorite flavor of horror. Vague and underexplained enough that it taps into the nightmare-unknowable, but with enough underlying logic hinted at that it’s not totally lost in the vagueness and you can find potential literal explanations. Has clear value as a metaphor & as social commentary but doesn’t bludgeon you with it to the point it loses depth or a feeling of realness (e.g. the Babadook = grief and the resentment born from grief, not much more to look at there(I should note I do mostly like that movie)). Also the right combo of ethereal atmosphere and genuinely grisly visceral horror beats (Hereditary scratches a similar itch tone and atmosphere-wise).

This and Red Rooms r my favorite new-to-me horror movies i’ve seen this year (the latter arguably more psych thriller, but to me it goes to ghastly enough places i’d call it psychological horror-drama (ah who cares genre is semi-fake)). Oh I also vibed with Weapons though that was more of a really well done fun spooky romp, with a bit of deeper substance and something to say that you can kind of choose to engage with or not.

no sweat amigo

rlly varies, if your online application gets black holed i’d follow your PSL local’s insta and go to either an upcoming protest or meeting and talk to a member about your interest in-person there.

ive been somewhat treating it like it’s spooky season since it got unseasonably cool end of august s/o to the chapobears who mentioned knifepoint horror on here, i’ve been running low on new-to-me horror films that are worth watching for quite a while now so having an extensive library of stories to get through in a new medium has been vibes

what if roux fucks around and discovers a found family of neurodivergent queers who accept and love them for who they are with all the complexities therein?

(haha jk…unless??)

memes & half-jokes aside this is good shit! keep going out and meeting cool new people m8

all i know is watch the VVitch, listen knifepoint horror, love my homies, and lie

Most recent attempt at a relaysh sapped a lot of that energy, loverboy portion of my brain put into hibernation for the first time in a long time. That shit is a lot of someone to take on…

In my watch movies, listen to audiodrama, journal, & kick it with the homies era

I try not to bully people IRL the way i do online

fwiw this is a positive, prosocial instinct. unlike online, reaching & moving ppl irl involves a lot of patience & meeting ppl where they’re at. if someone comes at you hot/aggressive a little self-defense counterbullying is fine tho ofc

yeah with a wound that raw it definitely does read to me like a period of space is warranted. it’s going to suck horribly for a while but imo it’s the fastest way to heal to a reasonably stable baseline. especially if she’s moving on faster than you, being exposed to that repeatedly while your heart is still bleeding is just going to claw at the wound.

i hope you can find a bit of peace sooner than later my friend, keep your head up

I personally think there are very few universal rules when it comes to love & friendship, so I can’t really give concrete advice. But I do think - as a strong rule of thumb - that taking space from an ex partner (with low-to-no contact) before trying to be friends is generally wise. The pain of heartache doesn’t create a stable foundation for friendship, and if you’re yearning too intensely for someone - even if you genuinely want to engage the friendship in good faith - ulterior motives/desires can often leak out of the subconscious (i.e. hoping the person comes around to romantic reconciliation). It takes very strong internal boundaries to work around this kind of thing.

Every situation is different, though, and I don’t know enough about yours to say for sure. But godspeed whatever your path to healing is, break ups suck shit, grief is a fuck

betraying the intent of its new account name, the creature wanders out into the wild darkness…to post…