asking for help is the hard part, exactly because of the other “minor” things that were diagnosed. according to the evaluation, i display some schizoid traits in that i, for instance, have a very hard time opening up to other people, especially when i’m not feeling well, because i feel deeply that i’m bothering them and that they hate me for pestering them. the consequence is that, instead of looking for my friends when i’m feeling down and neglecting them when i’m feeling well, i only get in touch when i’m basically feeling fantastic (e.g. right now). any discomfort makes me immediately isolate myself for comfort
i feel like the formal diagnosis + meds + therapy are going to help me with that, but it also feels like it’s always gonna be a struggle
firefox has been following kde’s colors for a good while now