i’ve discovered that i’m on a biweekly cycle of moods, one week i feel ok-ish and productive, next week i’m depressed as hell. i don’t know what causes this “cycle” but my guess would be the endocrine system.

this week was a “sad” week, couldn’t really focus on things, there’s not much to say about it

got an appointment with my therapist on the 3rd of this next month, i’m going to tell her about my chosen name and ask for hrt. i don’t care how i’ll hide it’s effects, i just don’t want to disassociate all the time

looking forward to next week!

also guess who’s top of their class!!!

i don’t think a wooden box is comfy, probably not worth it

can you say that your cognitive abilities improved?

better than last week

i think a fail safe or whatever kicked in my brain that kept me from feeling stuff, i was able function properly

got an appointment with my psychiatrist and holy crap her price have gone up (by 100%), hopefully that will be the last time i see a psychiatrist for a while

crap, i’ve been on vacation for the last 4 days, brought a lot of books to study at home, didn’t open a single book

i think my antidepressants aren’t enough anymore; the fog™️ got too big to suppress it. every thought i have feels like a giant rock, and talking to people feels like a chore. gonna make my mum book a session with my therapist soon; i hope she’ll be a help. in the last session, she was kinda eager to start me on estrogen, wonder if she’ll give in this time.

if i start taking proper medication i don’t know how or how much i’m going to hide it from my family. presuming i’ll need to see an endocrinologist, what will they and my family need to know?

facial hair fuckign sucks, more persists after each shave and there’s no way to stop/slow down its spread.

i would continue rambling on but it’s getting too messy

did you ask if you can keep them

this makes me wish i had a larger queer friend group

what does the gel itself taste like?

broke up with my girlfriend earlier this week, i was quite shocked when she said that. Cried for like an hour that day which was quite surprising that i had the capacity to cry like that, can’t imagine how that would’ve gone if i was on e

atleast i’m doing better academically

Damn, that’s a lot.

Yeah, I dissociate a lot, haha.

Anyways, they will get used to you doing stuff you like, they usually need to get past their trans and other stigma (which can take a really long time). If your city has a support group for parents of queer children, you can try signing them up.

As a person who’s been in the closet for the last 4 years, I share the same struggles as you, I’ll see someone sharing their transition story/timeline on other social media platforms and get a mood hit instantly.

Seeing other transgender people is basically a reality check for me, reminding me of the harsh reality I live in, the person I actually am, and what it can be.

Hang in there, probably everything will be alright!!

they can’t get any lower than this

wtf

just stole it from one of my friends

poor girl is now left unnamed…

like this

💥💥💥

I think it isn’t fair to say that we’re born “damaged.” That’s a part of our identity like albinism or astigmatism, all of that counts up to a person.

it’s totally fine

do you ever forget that you’re trans?

watched it after your recommendation, wanted to cry afterwards

I would need the puberty blockers prescribed to me, as I don’t have money to buy those myself, and my parents could look up what the medicine does

I’m pretty sure that they’re not supportive, they didn’t learn that I’m trans or anything so I’m fine-ish.

Appointment wasn’t bad but wasn’t really good either, she told me that pills were for to down dysphoria ramblings.