extremely telling that reddit is always full of cherry picked isolated incidents of muslims doing “barbaric” things that get thousands of upvotes but not a single post in sight of this mass assault by a white christian terrorist

good on them, wish more musicians had the guts to follow suit. i’ve been so disgusted by how “default” spotify has become when it comes to distribution and music discovery…

idk as someone who worked multiple jobs with kids the “stare” usually means you as an adult are not engaging enough

also seen plenty of millenials genX and boomers do this same “stare” when you say something they don’t want to comprehend

personally, i find it hard to care for myself when i’m not being cared for from others. not that i need someone all the time (very used to the solitude atp); it just makes me feel like “what’s the point?”, like the tree in the forest thing, why does it matter if i’m in shape or taking care of my hygiene or improving as a person if no one is there to even notice or acknowledge it?

i used to believe in the “do it for yourself” mentality but that’s the same mentality that led to me being completely isolated. these days i’ve built enough resilience to continue healthy habits and take care of myself more than i used to, mainly out of spite, and i try to consider my life experience and body/mind/soul just part of my life ‘experiment’ that i’ll see through to the end just so i can have a good laugh about it before it’s all over.

aw this made me so sad to read and i relate entirely too well i genuinely feel like peoples approach/philosophies around friendship and community in the west is so poisoned and perversed. it feels hard to keep trying when you keep being willing to meet people beyond halfway and even that doesn’t get reciprocated in the way its deserved, and yet all the shittiest people i know are surrounded by many many friends and endorsed and accepted by the people around them. like it’s not your or my fault but it still fucking sucks