I was only responsible for moderating content and the community so i don’t know exactly. I think the domain does also belong to them.

Maybe there would be a chance of a new admin team, however the legal owner of the hardware has gone no-contact and the sysadmin moved on to other projects.

I accept it. Sometimes it comes in useful, other times its a detriment.

My brain is indeed weird. 😄

I cant say i have. other than being the weird outcast kid in school, That’s a universal thing i imagine. I have not yet entered the workforce so i don’t know the situation there.

We had a similar situation here in Poland in the 00’s and the early 10’s. I was a kid then so i don’t remember any of the bureaucracy but i do remember having to go to a bunch of doctors to finally get an reluctant aspergers syndrome diagnosis.

Please consider contacting an addiction specialist. It sounds like your life quality is significantly impaired because of it.