I am a lazy failure who can’t do anything. Basic shit I consistently just… don’t do. Its embarrassing. I don’t even want to list all of it. I have hobby stuff I’ve wanted to for years that I’ve just never gotten set up. Homework? More like I’m not fucking doing that. I’ve been wanting to take steps for months to get myself on hormones and get clothes but have I done them? No? Of course not, because I’m fucking lazy. All I do is rot. Its been this way for a long time, I can’t even remember when the last time I didn’t struggle with this. And it doesn’t feel like its getting better. If it really is my autism I’m not sure how it ever can get better.
I am exactly like that. I was like that in school (no homework in 9 years of school, not a single one), now grown up and with family, it is now the home tasks / hobby ideas, that I just not feel like having energy to do. And I always have an apology: looking after our son, which doesn’t make stuff more easy… But with a lot of talking with GF and writing stuff down, it keeps on working, until it starts to fail again, where my girlfriend remembers me, and stuff starts to work again…
🥳at end of year, I get checked against ADHS, hope I get to a more permanent solution