That sounds like something that might happen to a character in some Lovecraftian horror.

Draw the most intricate, gorgeous eyes the world has ever seen.

While I do know this was written partially as a joke, let me rant for a lil bit. Art for me is the expression of emotions and intend, someone’s view of the world, and someone’s desire to tell a story. Art is much reflection on one self as well as said reflection expressed in ways of creation. Let’s say someone makes a mechanical calculator today, what does it tell me about the person who build it? Their love for mechanical automation, the play of physics and interactions thereof with the human concept of numbers, someone’s general curiosity how everything plays together; a fascination with nature and everything born off of it. Let’s say someone draws an eye, the media most humans use to observe everything and being observed, a media used to shape who we are, so what can we represent with that? Parts of someone’s personality and current emotion (shape of eyes, muscle movement/placement around those [the way an eye is open], tears), they can represent who someone is, what defines then, do they have a gray stare? The color of their iris, the size of their pupil, reflections inside the eyes or lack thereof; a literal representation of human nature and the state of their wellbeing. So then, what if an artists just bucket fills a canvas red without deeper meaning? Well are you sure there is no deeper meaning? What if the intend of the art wasn’t pretty picture but rather you reflecting on yourself and your current emotional state? If you pay money for an museum exhibition and see that, a square of red, will you not feel ripped off? You paid money for art, youre seeing a solid color, its a scam! Then reflect, isn’t that exactly the desired art, not the picture but how you feel, your emotions? What does red often represent? Its used to attract attention, it represents anger, love; you see the art because of how bold it is, a square of nothing in a museum, then you feel anger, you’ve been ripped of, and after thinking about it you love it, because the art wasn’t pretty picture, but the intend of making you feel emotions, a bold exclamation of human nature, emotions and self reflection; you are the art.

What about someone trying to tell a story but fail? What drives someone to do something like telling a story, creating a world, without knowing how. What brings someone to try something they never did, a story that inevitably isn’t as good as desired and full of plotholes? Its someone’s unapologetic intend to speak, a representation of who they are, that they are interested enough in trying to create something dearly for them, to not give up until they hit upload for the world to read a small slice of their creativity and desire to experience and let others experience.

Art is not just pretty picture, art is everything.

And even besides that, what does it matter as long as you have fun? If youre practicing for a decade something like this, fun, should have already struck, so just keep going and enjoy yourself :3