If it makes you feel better, the late 19th century Intelligentsia of the Russian Empire felt the same.
It took a civil war to jumpstart Chinese and Russian socialism. To put it another way, the central state and military needed to be severely weakened so it’s monopoly on violence is broken. Western governments, particularly their militaries, never reached this level of collapse historically, so they were able to quash their revolutionary movements.
If it makes you feel better, the late 19th century Intelligentsia of the Russian Empire felt the same.
It took a civil war to jumpstart Chinese and Russian socialism. To put it another way, the central state and military needed to be severely weakened so it’s monopoly on violence is broken. Western governments, particularly their militaries, never reached this level of collapse historically, so they were able to quash their revolutionary movements.