Yeah I feel this, but the healthy way to deal with this is by recognizing what is causing our despair and acting against that, in order to arrive in a new world, we cannot even imagine right now.
I’m gonna be self critical here and say that large parts of my despair is caused by the lack of seeing my actions make a positive impact on the world around me, something that would make me feel hopeful. But of course it’s not that easy as I’m barely getting by myself. Try to do something yourself, if you’re able.
Me ranting about my life.
I’ve dedicated most of it since 2014 for the single purpose of making money. Because that’s what we need to keep ourselves housed and fed. I lost all my local friends since i came out to them and had no time to make new connections. I don’t watch movies, they take too much time. All I’ve done is listen to stuff while I try to make money. Sometimes I take like a week off to do something fun, end up feeling guilty and go back to grinding. I tell myself that at least I can be the 1st person in line when shit goes down and somebody is going to have to take those positions, so why not a stranger like myself. That’s how I kept myself going.
Yeah I feel this, but the healthy way to deal with this is by recognizing what is causing our despair and acting against that, in order to arrive in a new world, we cannot even imagine right now.
I’m gonna be self critical here and say that large parts of my despair is caused by the lack of seeing my actions make a positive impact on the world around me, something that would make me feel hopeful. But of course it’s not that easy as I’m barely getting by myself. Try to do something yourself, if you’re able.
Me ranting about my life.
I’ve dedicated most of it since 2014 for the single purpose of making money. Because that’s what we need to keep ourselves housed and fed. I lost all my local friends since i came out to them and had no time to make new connections. I don’t watch movies, they take too much time. All I’ve done is listen to stuff while I try to make money. Sometimes I take like a week off to do something fun, end up feeling guilty and go back to grinding. I tell myself that at least I can be the 1st person in line when shit goes down and somebody is going to have to take those positions, so why not a stranger like myself. That’s how I kept myself going.