My person like that died last year and I’m still not okay.
Edit:
I appreciate the outpouring of support here.
Story time:
I grew up in an abusive household. My mother had BPD, and my sibling was the golden child. I was the scapegoat.
When things got too hot, I could just show up on my person’s couch, middle of the night, and the only question ever asked was what I wanted for breakfast.
I’ve since moved across the country, but I ache for that sense of security again. Somewhere where I was always welcomed and never made to feel less than. Now that they’ve died, I fear I’ll never find it again.
It’s so hard to deal with, but I need help since it’s been 14 months and I still cry near daily.
I’ve got an appointment later this week to get some professional help, because I don’t think they’d appreciate the mess I’ve become since their passing.
I’ve got an appointment later this week to talk to professional types because I’m not handling it well and I don’t think they’d like to see me in the state I currently am.
My person like that died last year and I’m still not okay.
Edit:
I appreciate the outpouring of support here.
Story time:
I grew up in an abusive household. My mother had BPD, and my sibling was the golden child. I was the scapegoat.
When things got too hot, I could just show up on my person’s couch, middle of the night, and the only question ever asked was what I wanted for breakfast.
I’ve since moved across the country, but I ache for that sense of security again. Somewhere where I was always welcomed and never made to feel less than. Now that they’ve died, I fear I’ll never find it again.
It’s so hard to deal with, but I need help since it’s been 14 months and I still cry near daily.
I’ve got an appointment later this week to get some professional help, because I don’t think they’d appreciate the mess I’ve become since their passing.
Wish me luck.
my heart aches for want of two things:
that a hug could be meaningfully transmitted through the internet,
that you would be willing to receive it.
… i doubt i’m capable of being That Person, but gods help me I want to be. I want to try. I hope i’ll get to…
I hope that you can be too, even for just one person could mean all the difference.
While it’s no consolation, how happy and fulfilled would they want you to be right now? What self-care can you practice to eventually reach that?
I’ve got an appointment later this week to talk to professional types because I’m not handling it well and I don’t think they’d like to see me in the state I currently am.
That’s really great! I am so proud of you…
huuuuuuuug
<3