For me, I noticed that a lot of my general negative feelings became more specific, like finally being able to put a name to it let me realize what was at the root of those feelings. Unfortunately, being aware of it more specifically also made the dysphoria worse. Curious about others’ experiences though
The time between between being certain I was trans, and starting HRT was by far the worst.
Ignorance is genuinely bliss, but HRT is better!
That’s me now. Before it was just a sort background hum of self hatred that i had pretty much learned to tune out. Now I’m actively trying to transition it feels a lot more intense and urgent. But even though it gets bad sometimes I’m also getting a lot of gender joy for the first time in my life and that feels wonderful and hopeful.