First off, thanks for all the supportive notes when I mentioned being nervous about my psychiatry appointment!
I got diagnosed with Inattentive type ADHD, which makes a lot of sense to me. Currently I’m coming to terms that I’ve spent a lot of energy covering up my dysfunctional traits for the past decades, and put myself into a state of burnout for the past few years. I’ve started medication, too, and that’s been a huge help to start building good habits and pull myself out of the slump I’ve been in. Super weird not needing coffee throughout the day, though! I feel like a cyborg or vampire or something when I prepare a single coffee for my partner lol
I was diagnosed at age 32 and when I took my meds for the first time I laid down on the couch at cried at the mental silence. I couldn’t believe this was how normative people were like and how peaceful it was.
It’s remarkable how big of a difference it makes. The things I remember most about my first day on medication were the “silence” and also how accomplished I felt after completing a load of laundry.