I made a post asking what the key differences between Hexbear and Lemmygrad were, a question I already asked in the Matrix chat, and everyone there gave rude responses and acted as though I was trolling when I was just honestly curious as I never took the time to really engage with Hexbear before. It almost made me cry.

I have problems with my internet use. Every hour, sometimes half-hour, I check back into Hexbear. I suffer from severe OCD in combination with other mental illnesses; I can’t help it. I just want somewhere to be welcome without being treated like a rapine beast for a past which I can’t alter.

I am not here to cause drama or troll. I have deliberately avoided political arguments to avoid harming the community’s flow. Yes, I have done foolish things in the past when I was 15, but have not we all?

I came here under the pseudonym I am most commonly remembered by as a peace gesture to a community which I have disrespected to indicate that I would not hide who I am and I was being honest for once, and I hope people would respect me too.

Is this too much to ask?

  • Muinteoir_Saoirse [she/her]@hexbear.netEnglish
    20·
    13 days ago

    I think the issue is that you made a post in which you asked about criticizing “revisionist” socialist states, which is the sticking point that got you banned from lemmygrad so many times in the past, as well as the last time you were on hexbear. If you really are interested in just chatting with people, maybe avoid conversations about revisionism or China, at least for a while, and show people that you aren’t here to rehash the same old struggle sessions.

    On an unrelated note: the last time you were around you weren’t using she/her pronouns, so I want to say congratulations on taking that step and trying to more fully be yourself. It’s a scary but lovely process, growing up.

    • Muinteoir_Saoirse [she/her]@hexbear.netEnglish
      18·
      13 days ago

      Ultimately I think that is the biggest difference between Hexbear and Lemmygrad: you don’t have to have the same political leanings to be here–seriously, check out the news mega and you’ll find plenty of people who are ready to complain about China being useless, about Venezuela being compradors, about Iran being doomed.