I made a post asking what the key differences between Hexbear and Lemmygrad were, a question I already asked in the Matrix chat, and everyone there gave rude responses and acted as though I was trolling when I was just honestly curious as I never took the time to really engage with Hexbear before. It almost made me cry.

I have problems with my internet use. Every hour, sometimes half-hour, I check back into Hexbear. I suffer from severe OCD in combination with other mental illnesses; I can’t help it. I just want somewhere to be welcome without being treated like a rapine beast for a past which I can’t alter.

I am not here to cause drama or troll. I have deliberately avoided political arguments to avoid harming the community’s flow. Yes, I have done foolish things in the past when I was 15, but have not we all?

I came here under the pseudonym I am most commonly remembered by as a peace gesture to a community which I have disrespected to indicate that I would not hide who I am and I was being honest for once, and I hope people would respect me too.

Is this too much to ask?

  • hellinkilla [they/them, they/them]@hexbear.netEnglish
    17·
    13 days ago

    I saw that thread and I didn’t understand any context. To me you are a stranger.

    I came here under the pseudonym I am most commonly remembered by as a peace gesture to a community which I have disrespected

    So you are known as a bad card which according to your account is deserved. But you want to have a fresh start. Why not just go by a new handle? Otherwise, of course you will have to endure continuity with your prior behavior. Whatever that was.

    Just because you do something “as a peace gesture” doesn’t mean anybody has any obligation to understand it as such or accept it. It’s very entitled to make such a demand. Whatever prior drama all this is founded in, I am guessing more will be to come.

    • purpleworm [none/use name]@hexbear.netEnglish
      10·
      13 days ago

      There’s no “entitlement” in asking not to be verbally abused when you aren’t attacking people or causing harm. If we pretend that the username is some sort of hamas-red-triangle that it’s okay to be cruel to this person, then it was a misdeed on the part of the admins to not just ban her and instead tee her up to be abused.

      No one needs to forgive her for anything, but that doesn’t mean that it’s just chill to behave however they like toward her.