I think someone downvoted you, it was not me though I just wanted to mention.
I apologise if I provided that impression, it wasn’t my intention. The truth is I try to be honest at times, and when I get stoned I tend to not think before I type and so sometimes the words I use are the immediate ones I’m finding relevant to use (I hope that makes sense, I took an edible some time ago and it’s hitting me a bit hard and I’m doing my best to explain). This is also combined with another thing, the reason why perhaps the words I found relevant to use to describe my experience is due to the biological male part being on my mind quite a lot lately.
To clarify, as you did ask: in recent times, at 37 years of age, I have come to realise that I have always been non-binary since as far as I can remember. From the age of 4 I would question, with great confusion, the divide between male and female gender norms and, fast forward to today, I truly don’t think I ever felt as though I belonged in either group.
It’s rather difficult for me to describe, however I never quite felt as though my thoughts, my inner feelings, ever reflected those of either male nor female yet somewhere wobbling in-between. Therefore, whilst I am biologically male and quite accepting of this, I do not quite feel as though I can call myself a man. This has been on my mind quite a lot lately, partly as this realisation has been rather freeing in some ways and I am slowly coming to accept myself for who I am, which I am trying to get some confidence about. I have also been thinking a lot about my life, and my behaviours over the years, etc.
I hope this answers your question. Please let me know if I left anything out.
Ah okay, so AMAB (Assigned Male At Birth)? I was like 70% sure you said “biological” to specify it was because you’re not conforming to your assigned gender, so good to confirm that is the case! Sorry if this caused some stress, just wanted to check this wasn’t a real dogwhistle.
I think someone downvoted you, it was not me though I just wanted to mention.
I apologise if I provided that impression, it wasn’t my intention. The truth is I try to be honest at times, and when I get stoned I tend to not think before I type and so sometimes the words I use are the immediate ones I’m finding relevant to use (I hope that makes sense, I took an edible some time ago and it’s hitting me a bit hard and I’m doing my best to explain). This is also combined with another thing, the reason why perhaps the words I found relevant to use to describe my experience is due to the biological male part being on my mind quite a lot lately.
To clarify, as you did ask: in recent times, at 37 years of age, I have come to realise that I have always been non-binary since as far as I can remember. From the age of 4 I would question, with great confusion, the divide between male and female gender norms and, fast forward to today, I truly don’t think I ever felt as though I belonged in either group.
It’s rather difficult for me to describe, however I never quite felt as though my thoughts, my inner feelings, ever reflected those of either male nor female yet somewhere wobbling in-between. Therefore, whilst I am biologically male and quite accepting of this, I do not quite feel as though I can call myself a man. This has been on my mind quite a lot lately, partly as this realisation has been rather freeing in some ways and I am slowly coming to accept myself for who I am, which I am trying to get some confidence about. I have also been thinking a lot about my life, and my behaviours over the years, etc.
I hope this answers your question. Please let me know if I left anything out.
Ah okay, so AMAB (Assigned Male At Birth)? I was like 70% sure you said “biological” to specify it was because you’re not conforming to your assigned gender, so good to confirm that is the case! Sorry if this caused some stress, just wanted to check this wasn’t a real dogwhistle.
No stress at all. You can never be too sure these days, I suppose.