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  • Dawn@lemmy.blahaj.zoneEnglish
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    2 days ago

    Hey ! Haven’t posted in some time here… last time it was about my fear of regretting transitioning and being sure of who I am. I’m pretty sure now, I have been on hormones for like 6-7months (since september), I love the changes to my body, my mood, my mind… But, I went out “as fem” to see if I could stomach being “full time” as they said.

    <TW feelings of transphobia>

    And the looks. They’re just so violent. Once the streets I pass are a bit crowded, and people feel authorized to be assholes, and I am not with my friends, the looks are… just wearing me down. I know I don’t pass 100% but they make me feel like a monster. They are looks meant to pierce me from end to end and overspill the uneasiness they have unto me.

    So here I am, having worked on my wardrobe, doing hours of voice training, having learned for hours how to do my make up… only for it to feel so so small, to be worth nothing. And I was wondering, honestly, does it get better… ? I feel kinda low at the moment :/