~pretend that ending bit makes sense, i had to clip a bit to fit in the character limit~
But yeah ive had my ups and my downs being thin, sometimes decent, sometimes too thin, and it just feels like i should at least give being larger a go ig even if i don’t like it at all. Maybe this just stems from finding somewhat heavier set guys pretty attractive.
As someone who has been BIG and all the way down to a “healthy” weight for my height, being big isn’t great.
I was pushin’ 500 lbs and wore a size 54 in Carhartts at my biggest. About 190 and a 32 in Carhartts at my smallest. Hovered mostly between 200 and 210 the last decade and technically I’m a little overweight but this size feels best to me. I have a not insignificant amount of muscle, and I probably hover between 15-18% body fat.
I truly think it’s best to have decent muscle mass, be really active, and slightly “overweight.” The best part about being slightly overweight and active as hell is eating. I LOVE food. It’s part of why I was so fat. Peak summer I’m eating ballpark 4-5000kcal/day, losing weight, and in friggin heaven. I’m strong, and have good cardio, I look decently muscular, but I’m not so big that clothes fit weird. More importantly, I have enough body fat that if I ever get sick or injured the calorie reserves are a boon. I’m not carrying so much extra weight that I’m impacted in any meaningful way.
When I was skinny fat I was a weak little weenie and honestly that really sucked. Like, at least when I was fat fat I was kinda strong. Plus you don’t eat much when you’re skinny annd inactive and I love food.