when i was 12-15 i had a fire in me to live but years went by and i became an adult and it messes up with my sense of dignity and humanity in a very harsh way and i can the urge to just break and obey my situation so if anybody could leave me a message telling me to not do it i would appreciate it…
On micnd’s point, is there nature nearby you can take a walk in?
What are your circumstances?
Can you sustain yourself after leaving? Maybe the answer is yes, and even better.
How secure are your finances?
If the answers to the above are no, then do you have friends you can rely on and stat with in the interim? What sort of community to you have outside of your family?