when i was 12-15 i had a fire in me to live but years went by and i became an adult and it messes up with my sense of dignity and humanity in a very harsh way and i can the urge to just break and obey my situation so if anybody could leave me a message telling me to not do it i would appreciate it…
Only you can ultimately motivate yourself to save yourself, there is nobody else who can save you fundamentally. You can have people to rely on, people you can trust to talk about these things with and help you help yourself, but ultimately your motivation needs to come from within.