I would like to add a description (details), but it would be a very long text.
In short: I have depression, multiple chronic illnesses, C-PTSD, ADHD (btw, I could treat it with Adderall/Adderall XL, but there all drugs are banned, even for medical purposes), no money to rent on my own, poor physical and mental health, some basic things I don’t have money for, I don’t have a computer and it seems that my laptop will soon broken…
I can’t go to a psychologist because… the quality of education and medicine in this country is terrible, and it’s dangerous to say “everything” here, my mother recently worked, but now she’s left without work and starts doing some kind of crap, she was the one who brought in the income until this time; she feeds me fast food. In this country everyone doesn’t give a sh*t about each other, I am surrounded by “broken” people, this is a country full of cynics, sociopaths, and narcissists (consider mentally ill… and genetically defective, apparently).
Like this… I am spoiled, my life and my future are spoiled.
If these problems are all in the brain/nerves/psycho area, then maybe you can try manual work, like building construction, or plumbing, or roofing etc… these professions are needed everywhere, usually with an average income = better than poverty.
Just go somewhere and ask openly for a job.
If we talk about physical labor, you will have to work a lot and you will earn very little. However, you will receive your salary in rubles, and their value is falling and falling every day.
Now the RuSSian Central Bank, as usual, is “artificially” holding the ruble (this bullshit has happened more than once), but you can’t fool the economy, and everything will go even worse in a couple of months.
Gotta start somewhere. It would be enough to rent your own place and get out from under your mother.
I agree that you need to start somewhere, but even if you have a higher education, working without stress - 30k rubles (~$300) is the “ceiling” in this country.
Renting a more or less normal apartment costs from 30k rubles per month.
What will you have to live on if you only have to pay 3k for utility bills (10% of your salary), and ~10k for food, it’s a mystery…
You can complain about “ceiling” and you can complain about medium salary. But all of this complaining does not get you anywhere.
You can start somewhere and earn something, or do not start and earn nothing.
First apartments suggested somewhere on Avito are usually nicer ones for a short term rent to party, guest stay in city or whatever. A shitty room in a soviet-made building when you talk to an owner directly can cost you way less than 30k. Again, VK groups or some limits by price would serve you better.
Being poor is being smart about money. If you need a place just to sleep and browse internet and don’t mind walking around to find a better deal on groceries, you can leave dirty cheap.
It won’t up to the living standards, but if you genuinelly want to escape your mother, maybe even that’s worth it.
I also remembered the other job – month-long shifts in the northern part of the country that pay well even for the simpliest labor. But you need to be fit for that idea and be double sure it wouldn’t send you to dig trenches.
The entire “business” (there is no business, capitalism or economy in RU) is under the control of the FSB mafia, accordingly, EVEN if there are jobs in my city (I do not live in a large city, but with a population of ~500k people), then they are all busy, because whoever is left in this garbage dump, now everyone is working, that is, the “density” of the RuSSian labor “market” is somewhere around 99.9%, other job offers are fraud.
Can you join the FSB?
Fuck FSB, bunch of criminals
After a military service only. I don’t think OP’s mental health is that bad to consider that.