Only you are the expert on your own experience but what you have written here and in your previous brain goblin post is consistent with transfeminine experience and with our desperate pretransitional need for assurance, for signs, for authenticity, for a certainty to wield as truth against our own self-doubt. I had an experience, a revelation, which altered my self-theorization with respect to gender in a transfeminine way, changing the emotional context of my gendered memories, and placing me in touch with a traumatic realization that things didn’t have to be this way, that I could have been living a woman’s life all along, but afterwards I didn’t want to trust myself, trust that this was indeed the kind of experience from whence one’s gender is acquired, and preferred to wait for some unknown something to afford me additional insight by which to justify transition to myself and the world. Some of us are more gendery than others and there are many paths to self-knowledge, but if your experience is similar to mine, how long do you want to wait? What finally pushed me over the YOLO ledge was feeling that whether I was a trans woman or not I still wanted to start HRT and transition, thinking that surely only a trans person would want to transition, and trusting that I would find whatever certainty I needed along the way. In retrospect, searching for some true core gender identity didn’t really work for me but embracing my own agency and my process of becoming definitely did work. Recently I’ve been reflecting on whether the insecurity over seizing the means of our own self-production is a Capitalism thing. I kinda think you have a case of Capitalism.

uwu après-coup

paws at the water

drowns her mouse

This is now a cat bowl!

napz r werk? if kitty no nap den who will? nyaa~ XD

Wait, I have something to give you!

[The butterflies in one’s stomach has been added to your inventory]

Finding a size that will actually hold a tuck and also fit well is the hard part for me. Lexy B Blair thongs in medium work well, Little for Big in small are too tight but do hold, TomboyX in medium have too wide of a gusset but do hold. Little for Big got lose threads quickly but the others have held up. Two pairs of Kalon boyshorts in medium work okay for me in some pants.

But what about the mouthfeel?

This is not proper cum disposal

It went to feministminigolf.org which is down now, but you can read about the exhibit over at https://www.carlythomsen.com/rjminigolf

Anal safe, my ass KY!

I like to use “goddess look” instead of the other terms. Plenty of really cute trans women are visibly trans.

Another option is ready-to-use solution of estradiol valerate 50 mg and progesterone 250 mg, 20 USD/vial, 8 to 16 vials per packet. Custom EV/P ratio is possible, or EV + hydroxyprogesterone caproate.

http://lena.kiev.ua/EV/

You can inject progesterone! Some suppliers sell estradiol and progesterone combined in a single vial.

Oh Zeus, did the angry fools not realize that the Odyssey is set before the social construction of race in a land and time full up with not cishet folk?

Thank you! Good luck with your hair removal!

So very cool! Folks had told me it was hard to get a hold of a good electrolysis machine. Like, there was a racket limiting availability to professionals. Seeing that you have one is an inspiration! I had been planning to have to build my own.

Are you happy with it so far? How long have you had it? Have there been any scaring problems? Are the probes and gel easily sourced? Have you ever traded work for work with another electrologist? Occasionally I see folks seeking such arrangements where I live. Do you mind lots of questions?

Also, you seem very knowledgeable about hair removal so you’re probably aware, but some folks use a dual mirror setup for hard to see places, which might make the neck area easier.

Anyway, very cool bit of kit you have there!

Try not making it sexual! Turning special private time into a pagan ritual helped me. Visualizing and feeling myself alone before civilization in a place of deep connection to nature and our Earth, with my body as sacred and my pleasure as an energy that binds me and all of life together making us possible. Like, ours is a universe that lifes, and I’m connecting to it through pleasure. That sort of thing!

I’m sorry you’re feeling like this! Needing to know is rough. For awhile my situation was somewhat different but similar as well. Others have been where you are though and came out the other side okay! Have you heard Travis T.'s song tOCD?

What if you were raised to think that you can outsmart fate if you just

Think of every angle, think of every flaw
Think of every single fucking thing that could go wrong

Think of other choices, really think it through
Think of more excuses to avoid the fact that you still want to

Same!!! How could Jay do us dirty like that! She even made it sound like being a puppygirl might offer more liberation from patriarchy. There are some interviews on youtube but so far no one has asked her about catgirls! I’d almost email her, but surely her inbox is flooded with catgirl questions.

Edit: Wait! Jay recently gave a new interview! BDSM Practices in Contemporary Poland. Guess that’s what I’ll be listening to tomorrow…

Congratulations! Highly recommend starting a journal!