To be fair I still do these things but only when I’m alone.

Personally I love finding big puddles and then dig drains with a stick or my heel and watch the water flow.

Also love to throw a piece of wood into water and then toss stones high up in the air and try hit it imagining it’s a warship I’m trying to bomb.

Then also without going into details there are some pieces of clothing I would like to wear but don’t because they’re considered femine or gay.

  • @SharkEatingBreakfast@sh.itjust.works
    46•1 year ago

    Because when I do what I want, I get called a “retard” or asked “what the fuck are you doing?” by the people around me. I make a point to try to do things quietly (stopping to observe a cool bug, making chalk drawings on the sidewalk, saying “wheee!” on the swings, etc.), but it really doesn’t matter.

    I’ve caught glimpses of people filming me before, so I now only do what I want in privacy.

    Also doesn’t help that I’ve been accused of “doing it for attention.” Nah, my dude, pretty sure I’m just fckin’ autistic.

    I only want people to leave me alone now. I don’t like having to justify my actions when I’m just trying to enjoy myself.

    • @khannie@lemmy.worldEnglish
      13•1 year ago

      People who love you should be happy that something’s bringing you joy.

      I would gently suggest surrounding yourself with kinder people. You should be able to stop and look at an insect in fascination or swing on a swing without being abused.

      You’ll find those people :)

      • @cubedsteaks@lemmy.today
        4•1 year ago

        I mean, they mentioned people filming them. I don’t know if they can surround themselves with kinder people to avoid that situation. That sounds like a general public issue if people are just filming someone like that.

        Think of those shitty videos you see people upload. Like that lady on the airplane who was having a fucking mental breakdown. And people were just filming it for their own amusement.

        hate to say it but people in general really do suck.

    • @CloverSi@lemmy.comfysnug.space
      9•1 year ago

      I hate this so much. People should be free to act like they want (as long as it doesn’t hurt anyone), because why the hell not? What’s so objectively better about acting in the ‘normal’ way? But everything outside the very narrow idea of normal is treated like a problem by default.

      I have some tics that come out when I’m alone that I’ve filtered out around others as long as I can remember, and honestly I think that’s part of why I feel so claustrophobic in social situations. I don’t even know how to act like ‘myself’ in public if I want to.

      Seeing people being themselves regardless of how it looks to the current typical sensibilities is the only thing that lets me feel like I might be able to do the same. So fwiw, every little bit of rule breaking you have done or will do makes the world a little better for me, and anyone else who doesn’t feel welcome. Thanks.