I keep saying my deadname in my head, this kinda started a bit after a family gathering where I heard my deadname a ton. This was in may and sometimes I will just say my deadname in my head and it feels wrong, it also kinda makes my real name feel a little wrong, even though I know it’s not and I like the name skylar
Maybe it’s different for different people, but for me I think it’s like this:
If you can deadname or misgender yourself in your head, that means it was a thought in third person perspective. If I’m having a thought in third person perspective, it’s usually in the context of someone else talking about me. Like, imagining a coworker tell someone a story about me, or something.
In such a scenario, I find that I deadname or misgender myself if I think that’s how other people see me, not because that’s how I see myself. Like if other people have been deadnaming or misgendering me a lot.