I woke up rested, got my little one in to school, got home, smoked a bowl, and fired up my virtual machines to grind pennies out of crappy cash grab mobile games to waste some time this morning. Stopped to use the bathroom quick, and was admiring how my hair line is coming in. I’ve had a lot of dysphoria about my hair before I knew what that was, it was the first thing that meant a lot to me and I didn’t know why, it was the first thing they took from me to try to break my will, and it was my first panic attack. Anyway, there is a lot of emotion tied up in my hair, and I wanted to share that with somebody and my first reaction was to send a selfie to my mom, but I couldn’t. So instead I’m sitting here upset that I can’t even celebrate my simple wins with my mom because of the way she acted last time (if you’re curious, you can read her exact words in a prior post).

Anyway, One of The garbage mobile games I’m playing is monopoly go, and they have this ADORABLE pink heart shield as a reward for the tournament, and that sucker is mine 💅

Blessed be ladies 💋 XOXO

  • @buchoEnglish
    11•1 year ago

    Hey - I read through some of your post history to get the back story. I know we’re strangers, but I just wanted to say that I’m proud of you, and I’m happy that you’re seeing positive progress on your journey, even if it’s just a “simple win”. It’s rough not being able to count on your parents to have your back. I hope you have someone else in your life to at least partially fill that hole, but if not… just keep posting, and keep going. Strangers on the internet being proud of you and happy for you is a poor substitute for parental affection, but hopefully it’s at least something. You got this. <3