Im sad. Im scared. Im probably not making it past 50. I have no hope for “the left” in the US. Maybe ill learn to cook hrt one day, so i can provide to my community and have some for myself when they forcibly detransition us. Ngl, if im forcibly detransitioned im just gonna off myself. Theres no way i can keep going without hormones. I could try to leave, but where to? Everywhere seems to be either terrible or going that direction, not to mention the issues with actually moving somewhere and getting residency. Id be buying myself some time (maybe) and abandoning the people im close to here.