CW: Mental health, depression
My life is getting worse because I keep flipping between here and :reddit:, refreshing and reading things instead of doing stuff. It’s some form of deep depression I don’t wish on anybody.
Sometimes I wish I was an NPC and could just tune all thus out and care about the local sports ball team or something. IDK, I’ve had a tough year and I’m just so out of it at this point.
IDK what to do
I feel this existentially, part of it is the sheer absurdity of existence, but part of it is the consequence of social media and doom scrolling.
I find it helpful for myself to take breaks, go for a long walk, or a run, stare into some water, lift something heavy a few times, or make some silly craft with my hands.
Regardless if the whole world is a fascist hellscape, or a communist utopia, we’re all going to the same place in the end anyway - our dead bodies decomposing into dirt, so grass and mushrooms can grow out of us and live. And long after that our sun will burn out, and the remains of people grass and mushrooms will be cold minerals floating in the vast emptiness of space. And the universe will slowly entropy, until it forgets anything that ever happened here. Good or bad, all is temporary.
Going out won’t magically make you feel all good and okay, but it could help stimulate some of the nice neutrotransmitters and help you feel a little less funk in a very funked up world. Keep being brave, comrade!
Becoming mushroom food sounds lovely. Time to log off