By the way this is the second time this has happend.

You know it sucks because I have been feeling suicidal lately and I’ve been seriously thinking about it. This just makes me want to let go even more.

Fuck the world, Fuck people like this. I don’t even feel safe walking outside because I might get attacked or harassed by some right wing asshole who hates me because of who I am. What the fuck is happening. Why do I deserve this? Why? Why? Why?!! I’ve been crying about this soo much my throat is raw and I can barely cry anymore. It’s so unfair. Just because I was born a boy people treat me so horribly. People want to kill me. People want me to die. Well I want to die. I would rather die than live in a world like this. Fuck me, fuck my life. I wish I was never fucking born. FUUUUUCK!

Edit: I’m going to go cry quietly under my bed, it’s the place I feel safest right now.

Update: Thank you for everyone who commented with support. I feel slightly better. At least in regards to what happened. These are hard times and it’s hard not to feel hopeless from what I’ve seen and heard IRL but at the very least you all have made me feel like it might be worth it to try. I hope there will one day be a day when people like us don’t face such hell just for existing.

  • ellypony@lemmy.worldEnglish
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    5 days ago

    We only really have words and images to contextualize eachother with. And people generally have no fucking idea what, or who they’re talking to. (Especially if they claim they DO know) and especially if they’re super vitrolic and hateful about it.

    I regularly post about my niche interests, music, Linux stuff, furry and pony stuff, puppycore, etc. And every blue moon or so, that seems to attract a new species of fuckwit. On FIVE separate occasions now across nine different platforms I have been DM’d by people with some variation of a wojak in their profile picture accusing me of being a woman poorly pretending to be a man. A very small group of unfortunate people in this world will likely spend their entire lives clawing at ghosts. Fighting non-existent enemies and “others”. Searching for the breadcrumbs that lead up to the grand conspiracy, scouring others for the traits they deem evil or whatever.

    If that sounds like undiagnosed schizophrenia. It’s because it probably is. This person needs serious psychiatric care.