~pretend that ending bit makes sense, i had to clip a bit to fit in the character limit~
But yeah ive had my ups and my downs being thin, sometimes decent, sometimes too thin, and it just feels like i should at least give being larger a go ig even if i don’t like it at all. Maybe this just stems from finding somewhat heavier set guys pretty attractive.
How thin are you rn? You can probably pull off the gourmand archetype. I know he’s more muscular than thin, but take Carmy from The Bear He nails the chef look.
Other than that, it sounds to me like you might be interested in a wardrobe change. Take it from someone who’s skinnyfat, I’m still insecure of having too much fat, but by leaning into a redneck archetype just a little bit, I’ve contextualized it and pulled off a real look. I highly recommend pinterest for this, gaining fat can take some time, but looking up “outfits for skinny people” and making note of what you like and don’t will make the most of your body type.
Also leaning into the redneck archetype myself (helps that I’m also born and raised white trash) and if you don’t overcook it, it can look real good. Not saying you should dress inauthentically either, but it does help lend some credibility when working/organizing any white working class folks.
It also helps scare away the libs. Just sayin.
I’ve spent most my life bouncing around the levels that are just about classed as underweight with like bmi 18, in the last year or so I’ve got up to like 19 to 19.5. Last time i got on a scale i was 55kg and roughly 5’7"