kinda in my head, a little sad. I want to be how I used to be, before life happened. A little dramatic this post, I guess.
How do you stim? I can’t do it anymore. I used to, when I was younger, I would wave my arms and say random things and vocalize stuff and sing. But that was a long time ago, and I’ve long since been trained out of it, both explicitly and implicitly.
So… How do you do it? How do I stim again? I can’t even pick up the stimtoys they put out in meetings for fear of someone seeing me. But… It makes me feel better, but I can only ever let myself do it when I’m alone. Maybe its not even stimming if I can prevent the behavior like that. But, I would like to be able to do the things that help me feel ok.
What’s wrong with me?
Edit: y’all make me feel ok, make me feel kinda not broken. Thank you <3
Omg same with the arm flapping. It sucks. I hate that social correction makes it hard/impossible to do it anymore/again. I bite my cheek too, its frustrating but kinda the only thing I can do sometimes. Didn’t realize it was a stim…