37 years young. Tomorrow, I’m finally asking my home physician to send me to a gender identity clinic to assess whether I have dysphoria according to my country’s standards and policies. If my physician does send me there, then within a few years I might get the much needed diagnosis and then I will finally be eligible for HRT.

MEANWHILE.

I have made a list of things that I can start exploring in order to feel more comfortable with the woman within. Gosh… Please excuse my phrasing. I’m so effing closeted. 😅

  • Hair removal - booked!!! Going on the 27th.

  • Perfumes - planned!!! Trying some out tomorrow.

  • Nails - don’t even know where to start. I have NEVER even given these babies a second’s thought. 😭

  • Wigs - I have no hair. If and when I get diagnosed, the state will provide a certain amount every year to buy wigs and they will refer me to a professional wig maker as part of the treatment for dysphoria.

  • Makeup - no idea where to start. Is there ANY other way than watching YouTube tutorials? Although I totally accept that this probably is the most effective way.

  • Clothes - am I just supposed to try on everything I find pretty? 😅🩷🩵🤍

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    9 days ago

    Finally back on a PC and keyboard 😅

    What got deleted earlier was, although not in its full glory:

    “English please. 😭” was just a really bad joke, trying to imply that makeup, to me, is like a foreign language that I don’t understand.

    I can’t stop smiling just by the thought of trying on nail polish! 😆💙 Maybe I’ll check some out tomorrow when I’m also looking for perfumes.

    There is a great thrift store where I live with a great selection of clothes that send a great variety of expression and identity! I live in isolation, but there might be one person whom I could ask to lend me, or even hang out with me when I try out, their nail polish. Although I can’t stop wondering what she’ll say when I ask her not to call me a boy.