I keep saying my deadname in my head, this kinda started a bit after a family gathering where I heard my deadname a ton. This was in may and sometimes I will just say my deadname in my head and it feels wrong, it also kinda makes my real name feel a little wrong, even though I know it’s not and I like the name skylar
DW in time it will pass, especially if you are in environments that do use your real name. Our brains are silly like that and do still take time to change those thought routines