Hellooo First post. I need to vent to the internet as I feel shockingly terrible.
So i saw my GP to discuss the next step towards transition. She pointed me to a nearby (as rural areas go) doctor who knows about gender affirming care which is very cool.
During that she asked, just out of curiousity, if i was going to “socially transition” before or after medically transitioning.
For me, Ive decided to do so afterwards. Its just mentally painful for me to call myself a women while I look like the bloater from state of decay 2. Thats a terrible and comical way to put it but its how i feel and thats the image conjured in my mind.
I think its essentially that changing pronouns does very little for me while I am still a man physically speaking. And most its maybe a nice bump in happy chemicals and then a quick realisation that indeed I am still a man so i just feel terrible again.
Anyway, hope you have a nice day/evening :)
From my experience, I don’t expect I’ll be able to look in the mirror and not see a man at least to some degree for a long, long time, so I’m glad I made the decision to socially transition as soon as I figured out I was trans. I feel if I put the restriction of waiting until I stop seeing a man in the mirror to socially transition, I feel like I never would. Not to say that it’s the same for you, but I’d rather finish reprogramming my brain and the brains of those around me to say and respond to the correct terms sooner rather than later. Transitioning is different for everyone, so how you think is best for you is probably best for you. ❤️