Hellooo First post. I need to vent to the internet as I feel shockingly terrible.
So i saw my GP to discuss the next step towards transition. She pointed me to a nearby (as rural areas go) doctor who knows about gender affirming care which is very cool.
During that she asked, just out of curiousity, if i was going to “socially transition” before or after medically transitioning.
For me, Ive decided to do so afterwards. Its just mentally painful for me to call myself a women while I look like the bloater from state of decay 2. Thats a terrible and comical way to put it but its how i feel and thats the image conjured in my mind.
I think its essentially that changing pronouns does very little for me while I am still a man physically speaking. And most its maybe a nice bump in happy chemicals and then a quick realisation that indeed I am still a man so i just feel terrible again.
Anyway, hope you have a nice day/evening :)
The one thing they don’t tell you is that you don’t have to do everything at once, come out to everyone at the same time, etc. Do what feels right for you! There’s not a wrong answer unless it’s something that doesn’t work for you for whatever reason.
You can change your online persona well before your irl. You can have a handful of besties who use your name and pronouns before everyone else. You can come out and ask everyone to respect your new name and never even go on hormones; you can use the mood boost from starting HRT to propel you forward socially!
No one’s journey is identical, and that’s okay. Don’t feel bad for taking the time you need, but don’t delay something wonderful for the sake of other people either. You’ve got this!