Hellooo First post. I need to vent to the internet as I feel shockingly terrible.
So i saw my GP to discuss the next step towards transition. She pointed me to a nearby (as rural areas go) doctor who knows about gender affirming care which is very cool.
During that she asked, just out of curiousity, if i was going to “socially transition” before or after medically transitioning.
For me, Ive decided to do so afterwards. Its just mentally painful for me to call myself a women while I look like the bloater from state of decay 2. Thats a terrible and comical way to put it but its how i feel and thats the image conjured in my mind.
I think its essentially that changing pronouns does very little for me while I am still a man physically speaking. And most its maybe a nice bump in happy chemicals and then a quick realisation that indeed I am still a man so i just feel terrible again.
Anyway, hope you have a nice day/evening :)
personally I socially transitioned 2 years or so before starting hrt, ive been on it since November, if you want to look at pictures before then as an example of what you can do without it. i didn’t pass for a good year or more, but it slowly gets better as you learn how to dress for your body and do makeup and all that. hrt helps, but it won’t do all the work for you, so don’t expect it to!
edit: to clarify I mean passing in terms of seeing a woman in the mirror, I am not good at reading reactions and I also dont really care what others think so no advice there