I don’t know what to do at this point, I wanted to live a simple life, I didn’t want tropical vacations, I didn’t want anything extravagant. I just wanted beans-and-rice, football/cricket matches, some anime/manga, literature, and some indie games, not many just like 2 or 3. But now this world won’t let me, I don’t have any complaints about what I have, I can make do with it, I have my food, I can read books, I can play some games but this world wants to take even that away. First an ed tech company took out a loan in name of merchant credit which made dad unable to finance anything then the bank deducted 250 dollars because and I quote “we miscalculated interest and charged the left over” bastard fuck you fuck you, I am leaving, if I take my own life then what will you take? NOTHING!!! You will have nothing to take then.

  • loaExMachina [any]@hexbear.netEnglish
    12·
    3 days ago

    I don’t have any better advice than this, but don’t kill yourself. Your problems are real, and maybe not immediately solvable, but not ultimately inextricable. People have risen again from such predicaments. As long as you’re alive there’s hope. And even of there weren’t… It’s not like you have to rush to your death. You can always die later. Waiting longer to see how bad it gets, or trying something, even something desperate to improve your situation never removes your ability to die later, but dying removes your ability to try anything and any chance of receiving help. Most people who attempted suicide and lived regret doing it. Don’t do it while there’s anything left to hope for or try… And there always is. Just don’t die.

    • Letztertod [he/him, comrade/them]@hexbear.netOPEnglish
      7·
      3 days ago

      I don’t wanna die… but I don’t see any future for myself where I get a bowl of beans and rice in peace. Even in dreams I am murdered by debt collectors so they can sell my organs to collect money.