I don’t know what to do at this point, I wanted to live a simple life, I didn’t want tropical vacations, I didn’t want anything extravagant. I just wanted beans-and-rice, football/cricket matches, some anime/manga, literature, and some indie games, not many just like 2 or 3. But now this world won’t let me, I don’t have any complaints about what I have, I can make do with it, I have my food, I can read books, I can play some games but this world wants to take even that away. First an ed tech company took out a loan in name of merchant credit which made dad unable to finance anything then the bank deducted 250 dollars because and I quote “we miscalculated interest and charged the left over” bastard fuck you fuck you, I am leaving, if I take my own life then what will you take? NOTHING!!! You will have nothing to take then.
You mentioned “dollars”, are you in a common law country, or a civil law country?
Are you a dependent or do you have your own financial standing? Depending on what country you’re in, there should be ways to limit your inherited liability from your family.
One thing I can’t stop recommending is going out to live on a commune or ecovillage. Declare a secret personal war on capitalism. Learn the charities that will feed you and how to sort trash for resources. Earn money and put it into a charitable organization that acquires land for efficient direct human use and/or nature reserves. Team up with others, where the people with good credit scores can be on the books while the ones with bad credit scores can hide out (for up to 7 years, when the credit record expires).
You can live in a pallet cabin in the woods, eat a variety of curries, have thousands of books around plus a laptop with internet access and the ability to pirate all you could want. Or if you want more people around, you can live in a shared house in a small city, get around with a bike, and have total proportional expenses below $400 per person per month. I know a lot of people who do.
I am in a mixed country where common and civil law go together however civil law often but problem is that I am disabled and often can’t move out of the place I am in, I don’t even know many people irl. I might able to do something by looking for online resources, thanks for you recommendation though, I appreciate you a lot!
You would be playing right into their cards comrade, they want to make it hard, they want to make you envious. Extravagant vacations are for the same depressed people with slightly more money. This macho bs is grained into young people’s minds, like if you don’t have slaves at least for a week in a year you are … not human? Sure video games are fun but helping a person in need is much better. Go out, look into people’s eyes for once, you will see you aren’t alone like this. But you know about it! You admitted it to yourself that this world is not worth living! You don’t have a problem looking at yourself in the mirror like those bankers do. Try to make it better at least for those who will come after us and then it will finally start making sense.
I don’t know you but I do love you! Please keep fighting like we all do.Thank you so much, I appreciate your words so much hugs back i love you too comrade
I don’t have any better advice than this, but don’t kill yourself. Your problems are real, and maybe not immediately solvable, but not ultimately inextricable. People have risen again from such predicaments. As long as you’re alive there’s hope. And even of there weren’t… It’s not like you have to rush to your death. You can always die later. Waiting longer to see how bad it gets, or trying something, even something desperate to improve your situation never removes your ability to die later, but dying removes your ability to try anything and any chance of receiving help. Most people who attempted suicide and lived regret doing it. Don’t do it while there’s anything left to hope for or try… And there always is. Just don’t die.
I don’t wanna die… but I don’t see any future for myself where I get a bowl of beans and rice in peace. Even in dreams I am murdered by debt collectors so they can sell my organs to collect money.
Can you ignore them until they go away? Where I live, debt collectors will call repeatedly and try to intimidate you, but if you just don’t answer the phone, problem solved.
Problem is credit score, they report it to credit agencies and because of which dad can’t finance anything.
But they go out of their way to stop us taking our lives too. More and more $u1c1d£ methods become illegal all the time. I used to be a member of a $u1c1d£ forum and every time they found a great new method, like various substances, the governments of the world would find out about it and criminalise the substance.
That’s true, our lives are so worthless that we don’t even get a dignified death.
I think part of it is that they want us to suffer. If we’re dead we aren’t suffering.
Exactly, that’s so true yes.
Have you considered bankruptcy? It can get you a clean slate and stop the debt collectors.
That’s the thing, it’s my dad and grandad first of all but I am living under the fallout, second it is not like debt is unpayable but it is the stress of debt, I never took out a loan it was the ed tech company them the credit score, dad can’t finance anything. Dad and grandad have both submitted to their fate and tell me to work to pay back their debt or fight legal cases for them, I can’t.
